Richard's Thoughts on Negativity

I've been playing a lot of games lately and I realized how much negativity annoys me now. I would play and if I lost, then it was frustrating. But when my teammates are condescending and just a bunch of negative energies, I get incredibly annoyed. I feel like I could get violent on these people and I'm a peaceful boy.

Anywho, with all this newly realized hatred for negativity, I found out that I really hate it when my actual friends are negative. It's even worse, when they are negative about something that they don't really know much about.

So for the people whom I love. Don't be negative around me. Not only that, but just don't be negative. Even when not around me. I don't like it when you bag on something to me. Even if I'm playing along, it's because I don't want awkward moments. I am really really agitated right now due to a couple people I was playing a game with. What possesses people to become complete douchebags? (Sorry for the language but I'm kind of annoyed right now so it's still not justified language. I don't even know if I spelt it correctly actually. Whatever.)

I know what makes people like that. It's other people. Man. This world is annoying.

But God is Good. All the Time. Even when the world is full of negative people.

PostScript. This might just become a sign-off thing.

Walking Forward

This is a sad but absolutely fascinating story.

I find a lot of beauty in this disease because while it makes her spazzy and really unbeautiful, when she runs, she is completely normal.

When she is in a state of eventual exhaustion, that is when it is the most normal and beautiful for her. It just reminded me of Narnia, in the Last Battle when the kids are running and they keep running and running without getting tired. They feel the breeze on their faces without tiring.

It's like another glimpse of heaven for her. How she must appreciate running now.

While I feel sad for this unfortunate event, I can't help but feel a bit of hope and joy for her.

I guess you can call me sick or whatever but it's what I feel.

God is good. All the time. Even when you lose the ability to walk forward.

Scooby Doo vs. Zombies

I don't know if it's my latest craze for zombies but I really fell in love with this t-shirt design.

ARGH! I wanna watch Zombieland! Man. When's it coming out on the dollar theatre. That's right. I spelt theatre the British way! I don't know why.

ZOMBIES!!!

Marshmallow - IU

Man. I have a lot to say about this girl.

This is a girl who I immediately thought was really cool. But that was prior to her becoming a crazy k-pop singer. She came out in Yoon Do Hyun's Love Letter (which is a Korean show with a focus on musicians and junk) and that is where I saw her. She was really cool and she sang well. I thought she might be the next W&Whale type singer. And she was born May 16, 1993. (I FOUND IT ONLINE! I'M NOT STALKER! [DON'T JUDGE ME!{STOP LOOKING AT ME!}])

Anywho. She suddenly got super pop-ed up. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing but all her coolness went away.

This song is a strange song. Some of it is just ridiculous but there are moments, around 4 times in the song, when the song becomes super beautiful. But only for a second or two. It's sad how she ruined the stanza with this song. :(

This is a picture of her when she was "cool".

Alas! Some More Procrastination

Randomocity

• So I found out that Proofreading is a compound word. Combination of Proof and Read. Genius.
• I just saw a girl who literally took my breath away. Like, I couldn't breathe when I saw her. THAT'S how pretty she was.
• I found our that in the end, girls are just as stupid as boys. Which saddens me.
• This was actually all a Facebook status that I decided to erase and put up as a blog post.
• SHE WAS SOOOOO PRETTY!!!
• I'm almost done with the paper. I need a proofreader.
• Maybe I'll post it up as a blog post but I'm sure it'll bore you all.
• so pretty.
• My stomach is like infested with butterflies ever since I saw her. eww.
• I need to work.
• Procrastination is bad.
• God is good.
• I love God.

Sorry for the lack of insightful post-ness. I want to be more insightful but when you study for as long as I have, then I guess it gets to your brain! OOOOH! I'm going to make a zombie post next! After careful study. Adieu.

PostScript. Apparently, when you study for as long as I have, there is a tendency for one to talk to an imaginary blog post audience. In French. To sound. More sophisticated.

A Skewed View Of The Church and How The Church Isn't Doing Anything To Fix it

I was helping out an anonymous brother with his finances because he was truly struggling financially. I was struggling because in the end, he just didn't have enough money to support himself. After a while, I asked him if he went to church. This is kind of how it went. More or less.

(It's been shortened for obvious reasons.)

Me: So, what church do you go to?

Him: [insert church name here], but I don't like it much.

Me: Why do you go there then?

Him: Cuz I'm kinda helping out.

Me: You should leave and find a church you can actually grow in.

Him: ye...

(few minutes later, after trying to figure out his finances and finding out that he just did not have enough money)

Me: You should seriously go to a better church. One where you can actually grow.

Him: Well, how in the world is that gonna help me out at all?

Me: huh?

Him: How is that going to help me and my situation out man?

Then I explained to him that the church is the one place that you should definitely expect help from...yadiyadyada.

Anywho, I was deeply disturbed by my fellow Christian brother's view on the church and sadly, I'm pretty sure that THAT is how many Christians view the church. It's just a place that I "HELP" out at and it doesn't do anything for me except maybe provide some fellowship, fun, and building to go to on Sunday.

I was deeply sorrowful at this realization.

I am currently writing a paper entitled, Acts 4:32-35: The Call to Share Wealth in the Church Today. In it, I'm going to argue for the urgency of the church to just help each other out. Not only provide mercy ministry for the destitute non-Christians (which CPC, as well as others, is also failing at [if it isn't, then I don't know of any program that is helping the poor so forgive my lack of knowledge]) but provide for the people actively serving the church, either as missionaries, interns, and pastors.

I am saddened when the church, which should be the shining beacon of hope in this dark world, is not how people see it as it is. When people don't expect the church to help them out in times of need. When people don't expect the church to be there for them when they are lost. It saddens me when the church does not fully reflect the compassion and love of Christ to others.

Don't get me wrong. Some churches are wonderful at this. They are beautiful churches that the Holy Spirit works powerfully in. However, the truth is that MOST churches aren't. I want to change that.

Ok. Now back to the paper. I'm roughly halfway done. No more procrastinating.

PostScript. Yoejin The-Neenja Whang is a follower. MUAHAHAHAHA. Look ma! I caught a Neenja!

PostPostScript. When I study, I get what people would consider a "high". That's right, I get high off studying. It is a nice feeling. It probably has to do with the fact that studying is a rare occurance for me. I get this euphoric sense of productivity when I study. I don't feel that too much in my life.

My Friend Knows Me Well

How endearing. My Friend.