I Am A Pretty Laid Back Guy

I view myself as one who does not worry too much about my future. I almost prided myself over this ability. However, occassional, random tsunamis of just complete despair and anxiety attack me. I just start worrying about money and school and my future career. This forces me to realize that perhaps I'm not as cool as I thought. I thought I was cool because there are no worries in the world for me because in the end, we all end up in heaven. What is ten dollars here, going to do for me in Heaven? But the older I get, the more of these utter feelings of stress and hopelessness I start to feel.

At this point, I don't feel it for too long at any one time but each wave is pretty difficult to bear. I just lie (lay) in bed or stand in the field or cruise on my bike and just think about all the things I cannot do because of my financial status. I definitely need prayer.

God is good. All the time.

Wedded Forever

I saw this after watching the latest episode of Office and I just thought it was cool. It's just the amount of effort and love that went into it that was moving.

This post is for Leah since she likes weddings so much. :D

Bicycle Ride

Today I woke up at 5:00 AM to bike to Seal Beach. I went out at 5:30, went to Seal Beach, and got back to church by 11:00 AM.

I saw majestic scenes like the sea covered with hundreds of boats, and the beautiful morning sky at the beach city of Huntington Beach.

But the coolest thing I saw was a goose with an afro.

PostScript. Glee is start to do the sucks.

Jurassic Park

I've been watching the Jurassic Park trilogy and I just witnessed the death of the most hard-working, lovable, admirable, bald character in the entire trilogy. Sadly, it was the most violent and terrible way to die. His name is Eddie Carr. He was the only character that did not whine, scream, complain, or be too annoying. He worked extremely hard to save the lives of three other characters but in the end, he literally gets torn into two pieces by papa and mama Tyrannosaurus-Rex. It was so sad.

This post is for you. Eddie Karr.

So True

Edit: OHNO! I think I'm only one of these! I'm just good-looking! But I'm pretty dumb and I'm an emotional wildfire! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The Greatest Trick Ever Pulled By Man

I'm going start this off with a STRONG WARNING. This is a disturbing post so don't read it if you don't want your day ruined. :D

Special Note to Michelle Park: You might not want to read this. Use your own discretion. :D

So, anywho, this post is about the man on the right (in blue jacket and white pants). He is the man who pulled the greatest trick in the established world.

His name is Issei Sagawa. He attended a university in France. This is where you might want to stop reading.

Last chance.

:D

He attended a university in France. There, he took Renee Hartevelt on a date. This is her.

He took her to his apartment and shot her. He defiled her dead body. Then he ate different parts of her body. There are some graphic pictures of her post-feasted body on google. Then a couple days later he dumped the body off somewhere but he got caught. He got arrested.

Here is the great part.

He was arrested but the French government deemed him insane and unfit for trial and placed him in a mental institute. Then since he was Japanese, they deported him to Japan with the order to place him in a mental institute in Japan. However, the paperwork did not specify how long he had to be in the institute. The Japanese government were refused the necessary paperwork to keep Issei Sagawa in the institute and fifteen months later, Issei Sagawa checked himself out of the institute. Yes. He did.

Now, he is a minor-celebrity and food critic. Yes. Food critic. HAHAHAHA. And he's allowed near children (in the photo).

I'm so sorry if I ruined your day.

How disgusting this is. How much more disgusting this must be to God.

I was reminded of this story because Ju told me of another Korean man. This man was 57 years old and he raped a 8 year old girl in a church bathroom. I don't want to go into details but her intestines and pelvic area is permanently damaged. Her intestines were hanging out of her body.

These disgusting things are actually happening and I heard good Christian men saying that these people need to die. Men who are taught to love others want these men dead.

I don't know how to defend these people but I pray even for these people. I think all Christians should. However, I admit, I don't pray too much. It's sad.

How pathetic I am. There are no special cases. There are no especially evil people. We are all evil. Our blood and being flows in them just as it does in us. I want to pray so much for the families and friends of the victims but at times, I feel like the old rapists and the necrophiliac cannibals don't get enough prayer from us.

I wonder what others may think. Everything is so wrong.

God is good. All the time.

Old Boy Review

I was reading a review of a movie somewhere (I don't remember) and I remember reading a piece when the reader said that one of the grossest moments in cinema history is in Old Boy. Not when he pries off the teeth of a man, or when there is incestuous intercourse but the part that bothered the reviewer the most, was when the protagonist got a live octopus and ate it while it was squirming.

I watched the scene, and I seriously think that the scene is rather appetizing. I really felt like eating an octopus. Perhaps not a live one, but octopus side dish or something.

I was partly shocked, then later bothered, that the octopus scene was the one that disturbed the reviewer. How many things has he seen that incestuous intercourse and the prying of teeth is not one of the main disturbing things about the movie. A mere live octopus eating scene? Really? I'm guessing he's disturbed because it is something new and not ever done before.

Whatever.