Liking Somebody

I realized that when you like somebody, you are blinded by your own vanity or at least I am. When I like someone, I tend to try and observe the person a lot more, stay close to them, whatnot, and when I do, I notice certain things that they do, and I interpret it rather ridiculously. Everything that the person I like does, ends up meaning that they like me. "OH, dood, she likes me because she said hi to me, even though I didn't say anything." and "OH, dood, she likes me because I saw her more than twice today." yeah. Ridiculously but at the moment it freakin' looks like they like me. There's a song by Dem Franchize Boyz called, "Oh I think they like me" and the title sums up my thinkings fairly well. I know this because I liked a couple girls in my days at Oxford and needless to say, I was machine gunned down when I asked them to formal. Imagine me as arrogant as can be because I think that these foos like me. I go up to them with my nose up and say, "hey baby-girl, I'll see you at formal. wear black cuz black looks nice on you. And it looks nice on me too." (This is an over-dramatization. I didn't really say this. May God help anyone who does. I pray for thee if ye do.)

But anywho, I just found out the hard way through trials that girls don't like me because they say "hi" to me and whatnot. I don't even think girls like boys if they're checking them out because that's how we boys roll. Even though I don't check out girls...Anyway, I'm trying to say boys don't like boys even if we're checking them out. If you're confused, we're on the same boat.

All in All, a worship song written by Dennis Jernigan, haha.

All in all, it just sucks to be in love with a girl. So much insecurities and scary times. So much stress and wasted times thinking about it. It's just too much.

BUT...

I heard this, I've never experienced this nor do I plan on experiencing in the next 15 to 25 years, maybe longer, I've heard that once she says yes, it's the best feeling in the world.

There's a movie called Adaptation where a character describes his thoughts on a girl he liked and the girl he liked thought he was disgusting. I'm pretty sure I shared this already but it's ok because it's good. He said that it didn't matter what the girl thought because his love was HIS love and no one can take it away. Not even the girl he loved. Deep. Interesting movie. I wouldn't really recommend it though. hahaha.