Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I Lose At Everything

I lose even at studying. I studied two hours and went in the calculus exam fully confident. 30 minutes later, I was sitting in my seat in utter horror as I realized that I couldn't answer 40% of the exam. I stayed in the room for 60 minutes. I spent the last 20 minutes just counting how many problems I couldn't answer and hoping that I could survive the class. I left with another hour left in class because I knew I couldn't do anything.

I'm done but this is the worst feeling in the world. I went in fully confident and thinking that I'd be out in 30 minutes with a decent test score but I failed. I am depressed and I don't want to talk to anybody. DON'T TALK TO ME! NOOOO! DON'T STARE AT ME! ugh. Don't call me. I'll call you if I feel like chilling with you or remember you. If I don't call you, just assume that I don't remember you. Don't get butt-hurt. hohohoh. Now, no one will feel offended because nobody wants to be labeled butt-hurt. Jigguhz. I am sad.

God is good. All the time. Even when I feel lower than the scum on the poop on the feet of a pig.

2 comments:

Sarah said...

awww. ricardo. it's ok. maybe you could talk to your professor? if that doesn't fly though, it's still okay... like you said, God is good. this is just one test, one class, out of your entire life and God is going to use you to glorify his name no matter what!

simonchung said...

oooh, no wonder you yelled at me. but yeah, i dunno if this'll make you feel any better, but i know EXACTLY how you feel. i feel ya brotha.