Morning Devotionals with Scottish Song

So imagine this.

I'm sitting on my "bed" in my garage. I am singing, not reading, singing Job chapter 1 for the first time ever in a Scottish accent and a catchy tune bobbing up and down in my short shorts.

Then I come across this verse:

(paraphrased) And after Job's sons and daughters partied, Job would consecrate them. Job rose early in the morning and offered burnt offering for them all. For Job said, "It may be that my children sinned, and cursed God in their hearts." Thus Job did continually.

This immediately shut me up and I just laid down to contemplate what it is that I just read.

A little background: I do not want children of my own flesh and blood. I would adopt a thousand kids, but I really do not want to have a child come from me and my DNA. The reasoning behind this is pretty unbiblical so don't judge me, but it is because I have a very negative view on humanity and children. I personally feel like, I am a pretty decent person. I'm a pretty decent Christian and pretty kind human being in general. And EVEN though I am this kind Christian, I know EVERYTHING that I have EVER done and thought and I know, that I am a disgusting, evil, unholy creature.

Now, if I am this awful subhuman creature, I know that within my own DNA, I have the ability to clone an exact replica of myself or possibly even worst, and my son would be that result. So I have no hope for my son, because I know what he'll do, and what he'll be capable of doing.

Ok, so this is where this passage fits in. IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!!! NO ONE SINS AGAINST ME WHEN THEY DO EVIL! THEY SIN AGAINST GOD!!!!! Job realized this. The first paragraph taught me how holy Job really was. I mean, I heard stories of how holy he was, but this is the first time I kind of caught a glimpse of Job's goodness.

And now, focusing on a God who created this "holy" man, if we sin not against the "holy" man, but against the HOLY GOD, then every time we sin, we are curb stomping Jesus Christ on a curb covered in feces and dog guts. Is the imagery too harsh? Because it's not. I use this imagery in order to lighten it. This imagery is a euphemism for what we really do to Christ when we sin. Because Jesus has gone through so much more for us to be "Christians".

Back to me and my fear of having children. Job's actions in the passage really showed me that my fear of my children sinning against me and making me sad and making me depressed was really a worthless concern. My concern should be that my children will sin against God and make Him sad and make Him depressed. I was worried about a parasitic bacterial speck when instead, I should have been worrying about an infinite and eternal God of all creation and the furthest reaches of the universe. Even in symbolic comparisons, I cannot really compare God to anything less than He is. It just doesn't seem right.

I love you all.