Tuesday, October 28, 2008
The Google Machine
If you type "ricardo chungo" on the google search machine, I'm on top. Yeyuh. haha.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
October 18th, 2008. 6:58 PM.
ok. I'm back. I got caught on the way. But this is probably my last post for the day. Peace.
I have to stop being a *****.
I have to stop being a *****.
October 18th, 2008. 5:57 PM.
Doooooooood. I don't want to go up. I went up cuz I was done with studying and holy crap. They were still studying. I thought I studied a lot. Hrm...maybe I should just runaway to my room or go play pool...maybe...Ye. If I go up and ask one of them to play, I'm sure the others'll make me stay or look at me like I'm scum, so if I sneak out and...go play pool by myself, I'm sure that'd me better than me being here by myself. Yeah. Ok. I'm gonna go play pool right now. Peace. It's only 5:59 PM. Two minutes. yeyuh.
October 18th, 2008. 3:45 PM.
Right now, I'm supposed to be studying. A bunch of folk from church came to BIOLA to study but I told my friendo that I had to study alone so I ran away to the lowest level and found a secluded area. After about an hour or two of studying, I'm right here at the library computer lab and checking e-mail and blogging and stuff. I kind of don't want to go to my friendos cuz they know I'm emo. I just want some time alone but ye. Anywho, I guess I'm feeling pretty emo cuz some thangs that happened but still, I'm happy I got a lot of studying done. I have to go work on Greek soon but ye. I hope I get A's. I also decided that I have to pray more so I'm gonna come up with an intense praying program for myself. I'm gonna be a pastor soon so I have to practice such things. sigh. It's gonna suck. Anywho, I better get going or I'm not gonna feel like studying again for like ever. Actually, I'll just check some more things online and then go. hehehe.
This is a note I made instead of studying. I wrote the note on my blog, but I decided not to make it an entire entry. haha. If that doesn't make sense, then you're ok.
Yesterday, October 17th, I was writing a song and it was coming along great, until my roommates came in. Never in my life did I want my roommates to leave like I did yesterday night. I REALLY needed alone time to write my song but they ruined it. So I couldn't write my song. So I got in my bed, prayed to God that he would allow joy to come in the morning (The feeling joy, not Joy You) and let my anger go. Today, I woke up to the worst dream in the world and I felt uncomfortable in my bed. Sigh.
Shoot, I don't want to study so this might be a super long post.
I feel more distant from BIOLA people cuz the one girl I chill with the most brokelost her phone and we have to chance upon each other in order to chill. It sucks. And other people were never too close to me to begin with. I'm trying to chill less with girls cuz I don't want to be known as "the weird guy that only chills with girls" although it might already be too late. I sersly think I only chill with girls and Ju and BIOLA. And I've been chilling less and less with Ju too. sigh.
Yeah. This is gonna be a mad long post.
I just saw that someone I stopped talking to for a long time won five thousand dollars so I was about to facebook comment him and eat lunch with him but I thought it'd be WAY too obvious so I guess I won't. I have my image and self-respect to worry about. haha.
If you've read this far down, you are either a) a true fan of my blog, b) a true fan of me, c) a true friend of mine, d) a secret admirer, e) a person who's not sure if I'm crazy or joking in half the stuff I say, or f) retardedly bored.
I want to go to noraebang. But only under certain conditions. I'm not gonna list them cuz I'd be a jerk if I did. But one of the conditions is that Yuggs definately has to go. Crap I spelt definitely wrong.
I'm SOOOOOO infatuated with this person right now.
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I have a secret.
Dang. I'm running out of things to post. I think I'm just gonna go back to studying. I just checked everything I had to check so I'm pretty much done. I guess I'll go back to studying soon.
I started this post at 3:45 PM like the title says and right now it's 4:08. Dang, I spent more than twenty minutes one the post.
If you are reading this, idolism is not good. Go read the bible more.
If you're STILL reading this, go outside. As for me, who spends the time writing this, it's too late. Just save yourself.
Don't do drugs.
If you're reading this while on drugs, comment me on how it feels like to read while on drugs. I'm kinda curious.
But stop doing drugs after you comment me.
I'm not on drugs.
STOP READING.
If you're still reading after I told you to stop reading, forget you. There's no helping you.
Dang, 4:12. I should really go study.
3 more minutes and I'll have been posting for 30 minutes.
F. This post is long.
I like Choi Kang Hee.
Look at my poetry blog. It's a blog of all my poetry. All the ones I'm proud of at least. It has two entries so far. I don't know how you'll find it but if you love me enough, you'll find it.
This is my last line.
No it's not.
Dang, I'm this far already, how am I gonna stop it. hrm...
Oh I know!
This is a note I made instead of studying. I wrote the note on my blog, but I decided not to make it an entire entry. haha. If that doesn't make sense, then you're ok.
Yesterday, October 17th, I was writing a song and it was coming along great, until my roommates came in. Never in my life did I want my roommates to leave like I did yesterday night. I REALLY needed alone time to write my song but they ruined it. So I couldn't write my song. So I got in my bed, prayed to God that he would allow joy to come in the morning (The feeling joy, not Joy You) and let my anger go. Today, I woke up to the worst dream in the world and I felt uncomfortable in my bed. Sigh.
Shoot, I don't want to study so this might be a super long post.
I feel more distant from BIOLA people cuz the one girl I chill with the most brokelost her phone and we have to chance upon each other in order to chill. It sucks. And other people were never too close to me to begin with. I'm trying to chill less with girls cuz I don't want to be known as "the weird guy that only chills with girls" although it might already be too late. I sersly think I only chill with girls and Ju and BIOLA. And I've been chilling less and less with Ju too. sigh.
Yeah. This is gonna be a mad long post.
I just saw that someone I stopped talking to for a long time won five thousand dollars so I was about to facebook comment him and eat lunch with him but I thought it'd be WAY too obvious so I guess I won't. I have my image and self-respect to worry about. haha.
If you've read this far down, you are either a) a true fan of my blog, b) a true fan of me, c) a true friend of mine, d) a secret admirer, e) a person who's not sure if I'm crazy or joking in half the stuff I say, or f) retardedly bored.
I want to go to noraebang. But only under certain conditions. I'm not gonna list them cuz I'd be a jerk if I did. But one of the conditions is that Yuggs definately has to go. Crap I spelt definitely wrong.
I'm SOOOOOO infatuated with this person right now.
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I have a secret.
Dang. I'm running out of things to post. I think I'm just gonna go back to studying. I just checked everything I had to check so I'm pretty much done. I guess I'll go back to studying soon.
I started this post at 3:45 PM like the title says and right now it's 4:08. Dang, I spent more than twenty minutes one the post.
If you are reading this, idolism is not good. Go read the bible more.
If you're STILL reading this, go outside. As for me, who spends the time writing this, it's too late. Just save yourself.
Don't do drugs.
If you're reading this while on drugs, comment me on how it feels like to read while on drugs. I'm kinda curious.
But stop doing drugs after you comment me.
I'm not on drugs.
STOP READING.
If you're still reading after I told you to stop reading, forget you. There's no helping you.
Dang, 4:12. I should really go study.
3 more minutes and I'll have been posting for 30 minutes.
F. This post is long.
I like Choi Kang Hee.
Look at my poetry blog. It's a blog of all my poetry. All the ones I'm proud of at least. It has two entries so far. I don't know how you'll find it but if you love me enough, you'll find it.
This is my last line.
No it's not.
Dang, I'm this far already, how am I gonna stop it. hrm...
Oh I know!
Friday, October 17, 2008
+3
Three more entries in my secret blog. Maybe I'll publish it into a book one day since people love secrets so much.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Disturbia Complex
Disturbia Complex is a term I thought up which refers to some actions that a lot of people tend to do. I've seen this complex mostly in guys and in some girls. This is an explanation of what Disturbia Complex is.
Disturbia Complex is when people try to disturb or make uncomfortable as many people around them as possible, be it people they are close with or just random strangers. People try to disturb people around them for various reasons, some being that it gives them a sense of uniqueness, unrelatability, or for image purposes (it just makes them look weird and creepy).
Personally, I found myself with the Disturbia Complex a lot of the times. (I don't even know if I'm using the word "complex" correctly in a sentence.) I did this in order to feel isolated because I thought that being alone was cool. This ties in with my image goal. My goal, image-wise, was to be the quiet, creepy guy that in completely unrelatable. aha. It failed because I'm generally Christian and fairly happy. haha.
For the most part, I think Emo people have heavy Disturbia Complex and such because they "cut" themselves. I don't know if they care what others think but still.
Anywho, you might be wondering, "Dang, I'm glad I never had the Disturbia Complex." I'd like to beg to differ.
If you've ever done any of the following, you have had anything between light case Disturbia Complex to full blown Disturbia Complex.
Ok now notice in the bullet points that most of them are just you acting like that. If you REALLY are one of those things, then you are beyond Disturbia Complex. You've reached Disturbia and you need help. aha.
Another aspect of the Disturbia Complex is a feeling of pride in each disturbing thing you do. And in turn, when you yourself get disturbed, you are shocked and say, "wait, was I just disturbed?"
Anywho, this wasn't a post to freak people out, but just to enlighten them on what the Disturbia Complex is.
Disturbia Complex is when people try to disturb or make uncomfortable as many people around them as possible, be it people they are close with or just random strangers. People try to disturb people around them for various reasons, some being that it gives them a sense of uniqueness, unrelatability, or for image purposes (it just makes them look weird and creepy).
Personally, I found myself with the Disturbia Complex a lot of the times. (I don't even know if I'm using the word "complex" correctly in a sentence.) I did this in order to feel isolated because I thought that being alone was cool. This ties in with my image goal. My goal, image-wise, was to be the quiet, creepy guy that in completely unrelatable. aha. It failed because I'm generally Christian and fairly happy. haha.
For the most part, I think Emo people have heavy Disturbia Complex and such because they "cut" themselves. I don't know if they care what others think but still.
Anywho, you might be wondering, "Dang, I'm glad I never had the Disturbia Complex." I'd like to beg to differ.
If you've ever done any of the following, you have had anything between light case Disturbia Complex to full blown Disturbia Complex.
- Laughed in a scary movie when it wasn't funny
- Laughed in a violent movie when it wasn't funny
- Enlightened people on easy ways to die
- Told people that a really violently crazy movie is a decent movie when it wasn't
- Recommended really violently crazy movie to other people when it shouldn't be recommended
- Talked about death and about wanting to die even though you don't want to
- Talked about hating family to people even though you love your family very much
- Shared knowledge of scary things, such as guns, the inner workings of a gang, or the inner workings of the child sex slave trade market when you don't have any idea what goes on in either of those institutions
- Talked about knowing how to kill people easily
- Acted racist when you weren't
- Acted like a supporter of the Ku Klux Klan when you weren't
- Pantomimed getting high off of heroin as if you knew how to when you don't
- Laughed a crazy laugh out of character of yourself
- Acted like you didn't care that people died even though you do
Ok now notice in the bullet points that most of them are just you acting like that. If you REALLY are one of those things, then you are beyond Disturbia Complex. You've reached Disturbia and you need help. aha.
Another aspect of the Disturbia Complex is a feeling of pride in each disturbing thing you do. And in turn, when you yourself get disturbed, you are shocked and say, "wait, was I just disturbed?"
Anywho, this wasn't a post to freak people out, but just to enlighten them on what the Disturbia Complex is.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
People Who are Part of My Song
The verse starting with "Soar above all..." was a poem I wrote under specific unmentionable circumstances and I just really liked it a lot so I included it in my poem.
ShinaeChung:
(verse starts with "Let us be happy...")
This little girl posted a couplet on her AIM profile, "Let us be happy and free" and I thought that was beautiful. So I used part of it in my song.
YounjooLee:
(verse starts with "Thank you for listening...")
Said online during an especially stressing week.
SarahCho:
(verse starts with "can you pray for me...")
This was the most random thing ever, and it completely made my day.
SimonChung:
(verse starts with "I'm so glad right now...")
This was said to me after we messed up a bunch of little kkangpae wannabes. They pulled a knife on us and Simon said, "..." and tornado kicked the monkey's face. It was a sight to behold. Oh and this story is kinda exaggerated.
RichardChung:
(Chorus starting with "I'm quite content right now...")
I was just happy to have good friends like these.
ShinaeChung:
(verse starts with "Let us be happy...")
This little girl posted a couplet on her AIM profile, "Let us be happy and free" and I thought that was beautiful. So I used part of it in my song.
YounjooLee:
(verse starts with "Thank you for listening...")
Said online during an especially stressing week.
SarahCho:
(verse starts with "can you pray for me...")
This was the most random thing ever, and it completely made my day.
SimonChung:
(verse starts with "I'm so glad right now...")
This was said to me after we messed up a bunch of little kkangpae wannabes. They pulled a knife on us and Simon said, "..." and tornado kicked the monkey's face. It was a sight to behold. Oh and this story is kinda exaggerated.
RichardChung:
(Chorus starting with "I'm quite content right now...")
I was just happy to have good friends like these.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Intro to My New Song
I came back from classes after a strangely stressful week and after listening to some soothing music, I just picked up my guitar and started writing a song. haha. Das rah. I'm a musician, some of you guys forgot, didn't you. haha. I'm not much of a musician but a musician nonetheless. Anywho, I just added chords to my poem then I thought of somebody and what she said, then I added that into my song, then I started adding all these things some close friends said to me over my life and I added all these things into a song. So this song of mine has four friends in it and if you want, you can try to guess which one you are. of course I'm talking to those four specific people but if you really super want to, then you can imagine that you are one of the four I'm talking about.
It's entitle "Friends." haha. wow. shocking. whatever.
It's entitle "Friends." haha. wow. shocking. whatever.
Friends
soar above all
worry not about falling
fly and be free
pay no attention to those calling
let us be happy
let me love who i will
age doesn't matter
i promise it's not just a cheap thrill
thank you for listening
i'm glad that we are friends
i feel like i always talk
no need to make amends
can you pray for me
i can't really specify
thank you for praying
and thanks for not asking why
i'm so glad right now
to have a friend like you
who won't go off doing stupid things
but will always stay true
Chorus:
i'm quite content right now
i don't need much anything else
worry not about falling
fly and be free
pay no attention to those calling
let us be happy
let me love who i will
age doesn't matter
i promise it's not just a cheap thrill
thank you for listening
i'm glad that we are friends
i feel like i always talk
no need to make amends
can you pray for me
i can't really specify
thank you for praying
and thanks for not asking why
i'm so glad right now
to have a friend like you
who won't go off doing stupid things
but will always stay true
Chorus:
i'm quite content right now
i don't need much anything else
Monday, October 6, 2008
Fascination
I found myself fascinated by the idea of an unopenable door. I don't know what is so fascinating but ever since I read about an unopenable door in Monster, I couldn't get the concept out of my brain.
I think it's cuz there's a certain mystery to a close door in general. And make that a locked close door and it is even more enigmatic. Make that a locked close door with out a known key in existence and it is just off the charts.
Absolutely fascinating...
I think it's cuz there's a certain mystery to a close door in general. And make that a locked close door and it is even more enigmatic. Make that a locked close door with out a known key in existence and it is just off the charts.
Absolutely fascinating...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Richard's Secret Blog
I was in an emotional/mental/spiritual/physical slump and in my time of desperation, I decided to open another blog. This blog holds all my deepest, darkest thoughts and secrets.
The link is RicardoChungosSecretBlog.doc or something. haha. Someday, I'll post some of the more lighter ones that are acceptable on this public site of mine. But for the mean time, it's my very own, personal secret.
The link is RicardoChungosSecretBlog.doc or something. haha. Someday, I'll post some of the more lighter ones that are acceptable on this public site of mine. But for the mean time, it's my very own, personal secret.
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