a quote I heard from a video I saw on Stephanie Chung's blog.

If all the insects in the world disappeared, in 50 years, the world would perish.

If all the humans in the world disappeared, in 50 years, the world would flourish.

The World Is Moving All Around You

I realized that everything around me is moving at a startling pace. I see this as I read people's blogs and just creepily stare at other people (friend or stranger). I was reading a post on the ckinparaguay.blogspot.com. CK mentioned that she liked staring creepily at people and wondering what their stories were.

I do too, but I like to know why they exist. I think that there must be a reason that God allowed me to make contact or even just allowed me the eyes to stare creepily at a girl. But most times, I can never figure out why I see/meet/hear/experience the people that I see/meet/hear/experience. Everybody's story is just moving too fast and it depresses me to think that most stories don't have me involved in it in any way, shape, or form.

I think that's why I'm content with the career choices I have made. For those who don't know, I want to be a missionary. Basically, my immediate boss will be God. I just feel like working even slightly closer to the one who made all the stories in the history of the universe, would allow me to get even slightly more "connected" to the other stories. :D

Postscript. Speaking of stories, a development in my own story. My roommate and I have a fourty-freakin-inch television in our room with a vga cable so I could watch all my 200 movies on fourty inches. Come on over guys.

I have a deep yearning to write another beautiful song.

but it's so hard. no inspiration.

Moving Out And Moving In

I am currently in the process of moving into my room and I found some letters. These letters have a lot of drama and history behind it and I just felt an extreme sense of nostalgia. Even though the history and drama behind the letters were so painful, I couldn't help but feel how wonderful everything is. How we grow. How we get past it. How we end up where we are because of all the terrible things that have happened to us. I just felt so at peace with myself. God is so good.

I decided to throw a lot of things away. I carry a lot of junk. Probably because I'm Korean (we have the need to keep EVERYTHING in case we MIGHT need it later on in life. Even if it is completely useless.) I decided to throw away everything that I cherished and kept. Given that it was useless. I kept all my tax papers and stuff.

All in all, I'm pretty content right now. At this very moment at least. I felt extremely unsettled the last couple days because there was a lot of change going on in my life. But it's all behind me right now.

I love you dear blog reader!

Post Script. Inglourious Basterds is not worth the movie ticket. Watch it on DVD.

You Need Jesus

The answer to all life's question, I believe, is "You need Jesus." I am so sad that the meaning behind this phrase has been so watered down by the world either because it's been used comically in Bad Boys II or because the televangelists have completely destroyed it by carelessly using it in their sermons.

"You need Jesus" means so much more and it pains me to see that people, even many Christians, think it's a phrase that crazy Christians say.

I'm going to break down the phrase and try to reveal a small portion of the actual meaning of the phrase, "you need Jesus."


"You" - In the English language, they don't have plural or singular forms so this "you" may have multiple meanings depending on how you look at it.

Second person singular form. This infers that the relationship is going to be personal. It is only "you" and Jesus. You will have all the help that you need from Jesus without lacking.

Second person plural form. This means that you (singular) are part of a bigger whole. You are part of a community of people who are in need of Jesus. Or as I like to call it, the church.

"Need" - This word does not mean want, desire, or need but only when it is beneficial for me. It means that we cannot live without. In this case, it would be "to need ceaselessly".

"Jesus" - This is the name of the greatest man that has ever been thought of on this earth. Not only that, but he also walked on it. Corny, I know. But it has to be epic. This is the part where it is most misunderstood. Anybody can say, "You need money" or "You need girls". This is where it differs from everything other "you need"s and actually makes sense.

Jesus is a representation of what the Christ Jesus has done for us on the earth. For those of you who are unfamiliar, you might ask, "what exactly did this fellow do?"

I'll tell you.

Jesus the Christ lived a perfect sinless life, then he was crucified for all the sins of mankind so that we (mankind) might have a chance of making it to heaven after we die. But the thing is, Jesus the Christ was the second head of the Trinity, meaning he was God. This is where some might say, "you're crazy." I know. I know that it sounds crazy, but I believe it with all my heart and soul.

So, when one says, "You need Jesus," they are in fact saying multiple things. They are saying these things:

1. You need to know that Jesus died for your sins so you can go to heaven.
2. You need to accept Jesus into your heart so you can go to heaven.
3. You need to live your life as if someone died a terrible death so that you can go to heaven.

Sadly, even at this point, some may be saying, "this is stupid, I hear this junk every Sunday." Well, then I would say, "you're not really hearing this junk every Sunday then. Unless you can take the fact extremely lightly that someone died not only for you, but for every single person that you love on this earth." If you can, it is a damned shame. I'm not cursing, it really is literally a damned-to-hell shame if you don't think you need Jesus.

In closing, I did even cover a speck of what anyone possibly can of what "Jesus" means. It means so much more than my amateur writing abilities can describe. Sometimes, I wish I was a beautiful poet or writer so that I can do "better" justice to Jesus than now. I say "better" justice because I know that even the most beautiful poet cannot write a line that comes even close to truly capture the true beauty of Jesus.

However, I hope that my fellow Christ-following folk might appreciate the magnitude of the phrase "You need Jesus". I also hope that my non-Christian readers might consider going out to church to learn more about this Jesus character. You need Jesus.

Youth Group Retreat

I don't know why, but I just don't feel like giving a full report of the youth group retreat which was a beautiful success. Pilgrim's Progress was great. But, since I'm lazy, I'll just give a brief picture report. :D

These are a highlight of useless things that have happened during and after the retreat.

Andrew Yom showing me how Megan Fox has a club thumb.

I met and befriended the great So Young Park.

Ninja is a really fun game to play. I don't know how we ended up in these particular positions.

A picture with Little Miss Sunshine.


I was dancing while Youth Group Praise Team was practicing.

A Conversation Between Two Best Friends

They would probably want to hurt me if they saw this but I know they wouldn't read this so...

This is a convo I heard them having:

Harry Potter: What the freak are you listening to, you moron?!

Yuggles: It's your i-pod, idiot!

Facebook and The World Today

As I was in the retreat counselor's meeting, I heard something that I found to be particularly true.

Chris Jhu was talking about how on facebook, you see what other people write to each other. You learn things without even trying to learn. I found this to be so true.

Sometimes, I go on facebook, and I see things that just truly disgust me, or stumble me, or just make me depressed. I just see some things that makes me wonder, is this something that I should be reading right now? This sounds like a fairly private matter. I get this all from the home page at Facebook.

So I realized that besides the ease of communication and being invited to events, Facebook is pretty worldly and evil. hahahahahahhahahahaha. I'm a crazy christian that condemns everything about the world! No I'm not. but still, Facebook truly conform to the ways and needs of this worldly world. Such a shame. Facebook used to be such a good boy with simple wallposts and picture updates.

Man. Facebook is starting suck more and more. But I'll use it until in becomes embarassing to use Facebook. Then I'll probably use it for two more years until I catch on that it's too embarassing to use.

OH dearest Facebook. When have you become such a tool of the devil? Man. I can't say that without sounding like one of them kooky Christians. Whatever. Don't judge me!

ALL THAT TO SAY, "Signing onto Facebook is pretty annoying."

Saturday Slums

It's 8:24 and I'm at Potter's house. So bored. Man. I should have gone to the softball game. Then maybe I'd be tired and at home.

No more cryptic posts which would give away that I am depressed.

I just found out that Ailee looks like Dan Kim.

I think I matured a lot from Paraguay mission trip but I still need growing. Man. Socially, summer is annoying. Summer is when I only have church people to chill with. So I can't escape to school friends because they are all in Indonesia or Malaysia, or Russia, or Korea, or some ridiculous place I've only heard of called Northern California. So if church people chill or are busy without me, I'm screwed. I have David but he has a job now too. And there's Rebekah but she's a girl. I can't chill alone with girls without developing an obsessive infatuation for that girl. :D

Anywho, whatever, I just gotta heed the words of the sage, Yuggle Pahk, and just "chill."

So that's what I'm gonna do. Just chill. :D

I've been researching songs yesterday. I spent a long time just listening to new songs. I found some decent songs but I found some awesome band names. These aren't necessarily good bands but they have cool names.

Seagull Screaming Kiss Her Kiss Her
Nico Touches The Wall

Actually, these are the only ones worth noting. I have a possible title for a new song.

Plastic Trees, Wooden Bicycles, and The Brilliant Green

These are all band names that I decided to shove into a song title. :D

Fidelity

I started watching House M.D. I was watching an episode called Fidelity.

-Spoiler Alert-

It was about a husband and a wife and the wife was diagnosed with African Sleeping Sickness. This is a sickness you obtain when you either a) get stung by a mosquito in Africa, or b) have sexual relations with someone who might have it. So they check the husband and he doesn't have it which means that the wife had an affair outside of marriage. This enfuriated me. It just hit a button. What sucked even more was that the doctors and the wife expected the husband to forgive her and reconcile.

This made me think about how men are expected to live with the burden of the mistakes that women make. Why does a man have to live with the thought that his wife had sex with another man.

There is a quote that man said: "What she did, you can't love a person and do that to them." I was like, "YES! RAWR! LEAVE THAT UNFAITHFUL WOMAN!"

Then, at the moment that he was leaving, I came to a sad, sad realization. As I watched the scene where he was walking away with his back facing the camera, I realized that it would suck if that was God. I had a post like this a while ago about how God was a husband and we were unfaithful wives. Apparently I forgot about the post.

Man. We are pretty terrible. The amount of anger I felt toward the woman is how much anger I should have had for myself.

Man. The things I do, you can't love God and do that to Him. Right?

Luckily, God's love covers enough for the both of us. Thank you God. House is a decent show.

Pictures From Paraguay

I finally got pictures from Paraguay from BrianHan!


This is a picture of Rosio and Maggie. Maggie hates my guts but I love her all the more for that. Maggie is the cool one in red.

These are some of the other kids that I got attached to. Joanne (in the pink head band) is an extremely talented dancer and Olympista. Paloma (who I'm holding and who I sadly didn't get too close to) is a talented dancer and is ADORABLE in a traditional dancing outfit. I didn't know Sara (way right) too well either. I had a strange encounter with Jenny (girl in middle) though. She came up to me and gave me a bracelet. I was like, "WHOA! thanks." Then she asked me if I could give it to Brian. Sigh. So sad. Anywho, she's still cool.

Then Laura (girl in orange) is my favorite girl in Paraguay. :D

That's it.