Perception of Beauty

I thought I was eventually going to have to write about this and so I am. :D

Anywho, one of my teachers were talking about this and I really took it to heart.

He was just bagging on the phrase, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" and the concept that beauty was relative. I kind of thought it WAS relative but after his explanation, I completely changed my view. I'm going to number the points so that it doesn't get confusing.

1. All things have a value in terms of beauty ergo beauty is not relative.
2. It is the responsibility of the viewer to recognize the beauty in beautiful things.
   

• So a person needs to be at a high enough level to appreciate some beauties.
  
• People who don't recognize beautiful things are just not at the level to appreciate them

That said, now I have to address the weird people who think that ugly things are beautiful. While I am open to the idea that God has made all things and in all things are small glimpses of his glory, I don't think it is necessary to say that those ugly things are beautiful. You might say that it has certain beauty-esque qualities, but you wouldn't be able to say that it, in its being, is beautiful.
So the people who think that ugly things are beautiful are just holding onto a corrupt sense of beauty which is so very sad. They are kind of straying away from beauty. They may have had the right idea, but they quickly got consumed by themselves and other ugly things so that their perception is twisted and corrupt.

Now, being the weird religious nut that I am, I started thinking about our perception of God and God's beauty. We truly cannot perceive God's beauty because the state of mind that we are in just does not allow us to fully appreciate and enjoy God's beauty to its fullest. HOWEVER, the more we grow in Christ, the more exposure we have to the unlimited beauty of God. So this is an encouragement to all to just keep yearning to grow more in Christ because you will see bigger and better things. God's greatness and beauty is inexhaustible, I promise. So don't be afraid to keep searching.

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Scott Pilgrim vs. The World

I'm highly anticipating this movie. Maybe because it has a striking resemblance to No More Heroes which I've played recently. It looks fun.

Several Interesting Things in the Last Couple Days

My roommate moved out on me and I found out about an hour before he left.

I drew a bigger version of my "Hero of Justice vs. Destroyer of Worlds" drawing on Leah and Monica's wall.

I shaved J-Weezy's head. James Wismer. Eww, I don't know, I don't like that nickname. :/

I semi-broke into a stranger's truck to turn off their lights because their lights were on. I left a note saying we (DaKimi and I) didn't steal anything.

I ate fish and I liked it.

Hero of Justice vs. Destroyer of Worlds

Hero of Justice ---------- vs. ---------- Destroyer of Worlds

Question of the day: Which one are you?

I can't believe I'm saying this but Flash Forward actually has a decent representation of Christianity (so far). I am so fascinated by this.

The crazy religious guy is actually pretty cool and legitimate.

He doesn't force his religion on people and what he is trying to spread is actually pretty cool. He just wants people to give love and receive love. What a fascinating portrayal of Christianity.

OH WAIT! THAT IS CHRISTIANITY!

I'm Here

There's a short film that Spike Jonze made entitled I'm Here. I really liked it. You can watch it online at

imheremovie.com

Unnatural Without a Hint of Hate or Judgmentalism

[this photo is from Jeannine (first name basis) who got it from .grant's Flickr]

I was watching Ugly Betty, and these two little highschool kids were fighting over a girl. One guy kissed the girl during a play and the other guy kissed her back stage. While they were kissing, I was like, "dood. Freakin children. This is so wrong. Little kids and promiscuity."

Then, out of nowhere, the two guys kissed each other. And I was like, "WHAT THE EFF?!!!"

I really have nothing but love for my fellow homosexual human beings, however, it does not mean that I accept their lifestyle. I don't and I think most gays know this. However, it doesn't mean that I can't be nice or laugh with or have fun with them. I do want to earnestly yearn for change in their lives and I can do this because I have faith in the Holy Spirit to work in my homosexual friends through me and our friendship. (I got this from Missions Conference)

That said, just witnessing the act of two men kissing was enough to complete churn my stomach. I felt strange. The best word to describe what I felt was, "This-is-wrong".

I also found out Ellen DeGeneres was married to Portia de Rossi of Arrested Development fame which made me sad because I loved Portia de Rossi, in the sense that I wanted her to marry me. I'm not saying that I don't love her anymore. Stop being so freakin sensitive. Let me say a single sentence without being barraged by stares and awkward gasps. Anywho, finding out that she was, as the kids like to call it nowadays, lezbo, was definitely an eye-opener. I found myself defending her and the gay community from a dear Christian friend of mine.

I wish Christians would figure out how to love people properly already. It's getting kind of annoying.

On a sidenote, I finally heard a friend of mine, Marika sing. Her songs were morbidly depressing but they were cool.

PostScript. The saddest thing about this post is that I don't have any gay friends. I know a lot of you were wondering when I had the time or resources to make gay friends.

Missions Conference

I love missions conference. Doctor Barry Corey, president of the Bible Institute of Los Angeles, which is the school I go to, said something that really tickled my fancy.

Doctor Barry Corey: "I think we need to pray right now, so let's pray."

Whoever I can comfortably say this to, without feeling outstandingly awkward, I would consider them my closest brothers and sisters. I have a couple people in mind.

Anywho, I came across something from my favorite little girl in Australia, who is Asian, and named Jeannine. I agree with it so very much and the terrifying thought of losing to monsters who have the ability to control my body. And the most terrifying part is that that monster is me.

note about quote
[I thought that the first half was super lame, then the second half came and blew me away.]

Here's another quote.

"You complete me." - The Joker

Preparations For Missions Conference

I love preparing for missions conference because you stay up late for productive reasons. I also realized a couple things about the people I was with.

1. Indonesian girls are insane.
2. Indonesian girls are really insane.
3. Indonesian Christians suffer a lot even though Christianity is not illegal in Indonesia.

There was also a serene moment in one of the Global Awareness rooms. It was set up to be like a brothel and it was really creepy. The lighting was all red and there were shady mattresses and condom packets everywhere. They did a really good job. As I was sitting there looking at a mattress with a red lamp and creepy atmosphere, the people were playing Christian music on the speakers. I heard the lyrics, "You're beautiful, you're beautiful," and I was just strangely moved by the scene. Even in the darkest creepiest places, God dominates and tells us despite whatever it is that the world tells us, "You're beautiful." I just thought it was cool.

Man, I had a lot of fun today. Thanks to Christy and Roselyn. I HOPE I'M SPELLING HER NAME CORRECTLY! But they were fun to be around. God is good.

The photo is from blaaaaaaaack.blogspot.com.

Little Miss Jeannine of Papertissue Fame

Sigh, I went back to her again. I feel so weird following a little girl on her blog. I know, it sounds so very wrong. Anywho, I found two things I liked.

This photo was taken by Anna Aden

V

V: Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.
Evey: Are you like a crazy person?

One Down

I finished the song I'm gonna sing for my future wife. Man. I'm so happy. Two more to go. :D

Man, I'm super excited to find my wife now! :D

Tyson

I am watching a documentary on Mike Tyson and something he said, REALLY struck out to me.

"I come from a really poverty stricken area, and when I came to live with Cuss, they live in a fourteen room victorian mansion, and when I first came here I said, "wow, I could rob these white guys, these white muthafo-os. I never knew he was like me, he was from a bad neighborhood, he was a street kid like me. and then one day he said, "listen, you have the chance to change your life, your family's life. You can be something very special. Don't you want to be champion? you can be champion of the world. You can devastate the world.

Do what I tell you to do, and I can make you champion of the world."

This struck me because of a certain dream that I had last night. I told an invincible Golem:

"If we escape, I will make you king of the world."

Fascinating. I think there might be a pattern in my life. Interesting. Just thought I'd share that.

Ex - 잘 부탁드립니다

These guys are insanely adorable. And insane. This song is about a drunk person!

My favorite is: "WUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

hahaha.

A Dream About Power

I was sleeping and I woke up to darkness. I had a beautiful feeling. I remembered the dream that I had. There is something about remembering events that have occured in the world that your brain has unconciously created. It just feels divine.

Anywho, I quickly checked the time and it was 5:12 AM.

I DID not want this dream to go into the abyss of forgotten dreams so I quickly wrote it down on Microsoft Word. This is EXACTLY what I typed:

We were in maximum prison facility where they did human testing and they created a golem or some sort which was extremely powerful.

I somehow figured out how to speak Golem and I told the golem in the language of golems, “If we escape, I will make you king of the world.” And the Golem listened.

It rebelled and all the prisoners, who were pretty nice guys, escaped for the most part. Me, Simon, and (not too important in dream) Brian escaped with the Golem.

Golem was like Dr. Manhatten but more humanish color. We named him H.E.R.B. after the initials of each of our names. I don't remember who the forth one was but, R for Richard, B for Brian, Simon wanted to do H or E for some reason, and then the mysterious forth guy.

We met three girls in the car and tried to play it cool and flirted around with our charm. One looked like Priscilla Ahn so I picked her.

Then we got caught by popo. [which is police in case you didn't know]

Then Simon yelled, “DO IT! KILL THEM ALL VIOLENTLY!” Then the Golem started creating destruction so that we can escape.

Then Simon got injured by the shockwave of Golem’s attack and I dragged him out of there and we saw the girls’ car in the parking lot and we got in. I was about to get in the back next to the girl that I liked, but Stephanie was there so I just got in next to Brian (not sure but most likely).

Then Simon was about to drive but he was pretty messed up from the injury so I swapped with him but there were two sets of steering wheels on both sides of the car and Jen Chung was there and she decided to drive and she called me, “stupid” with a smile on her face.

Then it ended but if it went on, I was thinking of how I can show it warmth and become the golem’s “father” figure because it was like a child. A child with ultimate power.

Potentia

I have a new favorite bible verse:

For the kingdom of God does not consist in talk but in power.

1 Corinthians 4:20

This was from the sermon on Sunday and right when I read it, it absolutely captivated me. I was utterly mesmerized by the beauty of this passage.

It also got me into thinking what Power, or Potentia in Latin, really was. I even looked it up online.

However, not one of the definitions satisfied what I thought power was. A lot of the definitions consisted of control or authority or influence and I can't say I fully disagree, but it isn't ONLY authority and control. It may INCLUDE those things, but it is so much more, I think.

My favorite definition, although I still think it's inadequate, is definition 3:

3. great or marked ability to do or act; strength; might; force.

I still don't like it much. But it's the ability to do. Anything.

Thankfully, I don't think any human being in the world has true Power. They may have "power", but any power on earth pales in comparison to the Power that my Boss has. The guy who is backing me and all that I do is the only one in the universe that has what I would consider "True Power" or Potentia Veritas. I have no idea if that is accurate at all but it sounds cool.

Anywho, that is what I've been thinking about lately.

One last thing before I end. I've been thinking of all the powerful people in the world. Napoleon, Hitler, Ghandi, Buddha, and any other man who has had overwhelming influence, political might, military strength. All these people who may not know God. I wonder what exactly it is, that they were thinking of, when they were pondering on what the True Power was. Were they thinking of World Domination? World Peace? World Equilibrium?

How tiny their scope was.

Truly sad. Power is not just strength. It is influence. It is the ability to make people love you without force. It is the ability to do. Anything. ANYTHING.

Thankfully, God has that.